there’s always one thing – that ONE thing – that we convince ourselves, if we had it – we would finally be happy. everything would fall into place. our lives would be complete. we’d have what we’d been waiting to have for so long…
i find it somewhat fascinating (and also annoying…) that no matter how many times i convince myself that no one thing can satisfy me, i still end up chasing after one thing/person/place/etc., still hoping that maybe, it will fully satisfy.
but i’m not going to go into a cheesy sermon about how “only Jesus can satisfy” and “God is all you need in life”, although i do find those things to be true; i do know that He is the only solution and the only answer. however, i will still find myself chasing after frivolous things to try and fulfill some void in my life, because, well – im human. im sinful. i think i know what’s best for me (even though i don’t). and i still get off track sometimes. but ultimately, yes, i do know the truth – the truth that only He can satisfy.
i guess what bothers me more is how this desire, this chase i go on to pursue “the next best thing”, the ONE thing that i think will make me happy – what bothers me about it is the person it can turn me into.
” What causes fights and quarrels among you? Don’t they come from your desires that battle within you? You want something but don’t get it. You kill and covet, but you cannot have what you want. You quarrel and fight. You do not have, because you do not ask God. When you ask, you do not receive, because you ask with wrong motives, that you may spend what you get on your pleasures.
You adulterous people, don’t you know that friendship with the world is hatred toward God? Anyone who chooses to be a friend of the world becomes an enemy of God.”
lately, whenever i think about all of the things im pursuing, all of the desires i have, and their too often fleeting and pointless nature, i am reminded of this verse – because, not only am i hurting myself when i go after the things that wont satisfy, but more importantly, im hurting others.
and that’s not good. not at all. is it really worth it? to hurt others, in any way, to get what we want? to get what we think we are so worthy and deserving of?
i believe that one of our greatest problems in this world is our selfishness – our never ending desire to make ourselves happy, at the expense of any one else. it is our “me-focused” society that tells us this is ok. everyday we are affirmed in our selfishness. countless messages and agendas encourage us to pursue a life of selfish, unending indulgence.
and where has that gotten us? we are one of the most rich and unhappy countries in the world. we are depressed, overweight, insecure, sad, angry, bitter, rude, and inconsiderate of others. we are “rich”, but by no means satisfied.
it’s sad that it has come to this, isn’t it?
what i need to remember, more than anything – is not just that the grass is always greener on the other side and i should be content with the many things i do have – but i need to remember that putting other people second to the ending pursuit of frivolous things is never acceptable or beneficial. and it’s certainly not going to make this world any better. and it’s not going to make be a better person, either. not one bit.
what is worth more? day after day, we must be reminded – it’s not the new car, the promotion at work, the bigger house, the nicer clothes, the high tech electronics, the exotic vacation – at the end of the day, what really matters to you? what are you willing to fight for? what makes life worth living? what would you give your life for?
“our lives begin to end the day we become silent about things that matter.” — martin luther king, jr.